No fear

I am quickly approaching the end of my time in a place I never thought I'd be. My emotions at the moment are almost out of control. During my time here I found out who I was as a person and how that fits in to who I am to God. I never thought that the most important lesson I would learn would come in the closing days of my stay. Despite God providing constant proof in my life that He will provide I still find myself hampered, if not crippled, with fear. A fear that is effecting all parts of my life as I begin the steps into building a new life that is no longer dependent on my parents. I met the girl that I'm going to marry during my time here and my life, which was so often dull and colorless, was filled with color that I never knew it could have. With this has come new fears and new insecurities I was never aware of. Things that should be given to God the moment they show their faces but instead are held onto. Learning how to love someone as God does while still holding on to fear has been like trying to learn how to swim with barbells tied to my feet. This kind of fear has no place in my life and it is time that I release it. God has always provided and will continue to provide. Fear not...